There, I said it. I have suddenly developed maternal instincts and the deep want to get married.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me! I mean babies are cute and everything, but before where I used to flinch if they cried, now I want to cuddle and soothe them. HELP!
This is not helped by numerous Facebook friends having children and getting married. They’re always posting photos of their newborn babies and I just think they are adorable.
I think this started about a year ago when me and some friends started talking about our ideal weddings… I now have a weddings Pinterest board!
It’s got even worse since me and my boyfriend ended it (honestly: best break up ever, he’s so sweet) because I realized I needed more than he could give me. I’m not saying I will drop everything to have a relationship and a family, but I wouldn’t say no as fast as I would have a year ago.
I keep thinking about how I always said I would be married by the time I was 25: I’m 20 in three months and I’m still single with no men on my horizon. And what’s worse – I have a career (yes, that’s write – writing is my career and I love it more than people [call a shrink now]).
I won’t give up my career, but do you know how hard it is explaining to people that you want to be a writer, knowing full-well that it will never make me any money?! Now imagine telling a guy that on the first date! Men (as much as they deny this) don’t like career women. I know the guys I know certainly don’t love the idea of a women (particularly me) being more successful than they are, and more so because I haven’t even graduated yet.
Maybe I’m generalizing too much, some guys are absolute sweeties about it but I’m not looking for complete and utter admiration from a partner: I’m looking for some respect.
What’s wrong with me? Is it self-destruction of my career or am I genuinely ready to grow up and find someone to love and grow with?
Have you been through this and could spare some advice? Comment below or Tweet me @melissaholden94